11.10.2024

I cried for the first time in a while last night. After a visit to my therapist, and about an hour outside at a park, I've calmed myself. It is difficult to live with myself sometimes, and sometimes my myriad of grim emotions have the capability of boiling over and causing me to freak out. I hate me when I freak out. I considered deleting some of my "freakout" entries on here, particularly my last diary entry, but I've decided against it. Come next month I will refresh the diary page and will probably do that every month going forward. If you read that entry, I'm sorry.