Mental_Illness

Or: My History of Trauma.

Being entirely honest with you, reader, I am a deeply disturbed individual, and not in the "cool", "edgy" sense. No, I am deeply disturbed in that I genuinely struggle with basic activities, and I routinely deal with a deep depression that causes day to day life and social interaction borderline hellish. Trauma has turned me into a borderline misanthrope, who struggles to communicate with others meaningfully. This has affected me since childhood, and because of my struggles as a child, I turned to the internet, and I was one of the people "raised by the internet." It had... mixed effects. I think it was mostly beneficial, as it was through the internet that I began to break free from the ignorance my parents kept me in by sheltering me, and it was also through the internet, and through meeting people of all sorts, that I understood my gender identity, and began my trans journey, which saved my life. However, the damage of trauma has already been done. I am still deeply affected by gender dysphoria, and though I understand my trauma, I still do not know how to handle it in any healthy manner due to