17.5.2026
phone call
'Should I even bother driving there.'
"What do you mean?"
'Will he be alive by the time I make it there.'
"...no."
'Okay.'
(Why is this happening?)
"I-I'll put the phone up to his ear and you can ah, say...say goodbye okay?"
'Okay.'
I am barely conscious. Tears stream like rivers from my unfocused eyes. Silence follows. I can only hear the heart
monitor. The words leave my mouth. The last from me he will never hear.
'Goodbye papa. I'm gonna miss you. I'm really gonna miss you.'
21.4.2026
I told a joke to a friend and he started laughing very
loudly. Through his tears he spoke:
'Sorry, I'm not used to women being funny'.